Its been a tough week to start off with..

Ah Gong's breathing and heart conditions are stablised for now but his will power isn't. He hasn't been eating, everything that used to be his favourite seems yucky to him now.

Chocolates, cakes, tofu, sotong.. everything we know that he used to adore, we brought it right in front of him.. he just pressed on his nose claiming its smelly, he feels like puking.

He isn't talking much sense anymore. Everything he is saying is of no sense to anyone..

Everyone in the family are finding every way just to make him take in some food, even if its just 1 spoonful of rice.

His children are all heartbroken to see him reduced to a bag of bones, so frail, so wobbly.

They looked for the greatest doctor that anyone recommends, but none of them can give us an answer we are looking for. And most of the doctors concluded it might be due to depression.

He cried, we all cried.

Its hard to accept, someone who used to be so abled, so independent, so sick at this point in time..

It have been long since i last prayed.. or maybe i dun really know how to pray, so i'll just give it a try..

The Mighty One Up There, i hope you're hearing all our prayers.. if he has to go Home, let him go in peace, without anymore pain... don't let him torture himself this way, help him, let him reach out to you.. ease his pain.. make him happy for the rest of his days..

I'm not sure why im feeling so heavy, but theres this sharp pain everytime he stretch out his hands to reach for mine.. its like he need me there, yet theres nothing i can do for him. nothing.

Jia You Ah Gong.. =) Live on, Don't give up..